she said she needs someone, someone to love her

-Being a woman means you are stuck with a brain that is in constant overdrive. Sometimes, in fact most of the time, I think too much. I over analyze every situation to the point that it drives me bonkers. I’m not going to lie; at times I wish I was a guy. Their brains seem to be so much simpler, well at least with most of them. Drinking insane amounts of coffee has been keeping me up late at night. I’m not an insomniac but I just couldn’t get to sleep last night. There were just so many thoughts running through my head. I didn’t get to bed till 5am. I went to bed after the social at around 3am and soon realized I was not going to fall asleep for awhile still. I sat at home in the dark in my living room, on my laptop, chatting on msn to the one person who would be awake at such an odd hour. My dear friend, the night owl… Colin. He was drunk and amusing and having fun in Minneapolis. I was proud of him for not taking a random girl home that night. It’s a reason to celebrate. He made me a promise to get loaded with me Tuesday night, drinks on him. Someday he’ll teach me how to win 8k in cash by playing poker, like he did a few Fridays ago. I finally fell asleep at around ten past 5am I think…at 9:30am I woke up to a text message. As soon as my dogs hear any sort of beeping whether it is my alarm or my phone they immediately jump up “time to eat and play”. However, if I turn it off and pretend to go back to sleep, they will too. It’s pretty funny watching them jump up excitedly when my alarm goes off and then crawl under the covers and go back to sleep after I hit “snooze”. Oh my dogs. They are great little creatures who amuse me on a daily basis. Such unconditional love, if none other, at least I can count on them.

-My ADD brain went from talking about being a woman to insomnia to my dogs. Wow.

- I'm at work and I usually enjoy working on a sunday, its slack and its 27.50 an hour. I pretty much get paid to sit on my ass. Today, unfortunately, there is a big open house for our new building which opened up a few months ago. This means there are tours of people coming through the building non stop...so I gotta pretend like I'm actually working. At least I get free hot dogs, doughnuts, drinks and cake.
-After work I’m going with my friend Mel to look at a few horses. Her and her boyfriend Joey are purchasing their first horse and want me to come along to give them advice. I’m so excited for them. I remember when I purchased my first horse just over a year ago. It was so surreal having her. Every time I went to see her last year I couldn’t believe she was all mine. Now that feeling is gone, but I still can't believe I managed to make at least one of my dreams a reality. I can't wait for my next dream to become a reality.